Goals for the Rest of 2017

Hello frenz! Welcome back to whatever this blog has come to. I've been bored with my blog lately, so I thought about doing something a little different. I've seen these done before and I think it's fabulous to share goals with likeminded individuals. I've tried to keep this post upbeat, but to be honest, I haven't been so positive lately. So here goes – my goal list for the rest of 2017.

I've been unemployed since March, so that makes a total of almost five months now. I was planning to join the Air Force, but realized that I was leaving too much behind (also I'm too old to be tricked by military schemes). I put that goal behind me and now I have another – to find a job. Not only do I need one to pay my bills and buy food, but I'm tired of not working. Every day since losing my job has turned into a blur and I'm ready to be productive again.

I really don't want to live in Pennsylvania anymore. It's poor and highly taxed. The weather sucks and my town should be known as Drug and Crime Central. By getting a decent (and steady) paycheck from accomplishing Goal #1, I hope to be able to start saving enough money to get the hell out of here within the next two years.

I want to write for a living, I've known that for some time now. I want to be a full time writer or even a full time blogger at some point. I want to get my blog out there and create a name for myself. I need to start creating my empire.

I don't think I've ever had this amount of stress in my life. I have nervous breakdowns almost every day, mostly due to lack of money. I can't afford things I want and need. I want to live stress free again. I want to be able to enjoy life and wake up happy.

This is something I've wanted to do for some time, but haven't had the money or want to invest the time in. But Halloween is coming up and you best believe I want to scare all the kiddos on the block this year.

Since money has been so tight recently, I've only been eating once a day and skipping the gym to conserve gas. I need to get back into the routine of working out regularly and eating enough so I don't waste away into nothing. It's easier said than done when you have $-33 to your name.

My trip to Florida at the beginning of July was so incredible. Seeing and spending time with my family meant so much to me. I want to make it into a regular visit.

I really do enjoy reading, but I lack the interest to do anything other than nap (thanks depression). I also find myself reading the words but daydreaming about something else, which leads me to reading the same paragraph ten times. I have so many books but have only read maybe five of them. I'd like to read them all and then add to my collection.

It sounds a little materialistic but I'm a sucker when it comes to makeup. I watch and read tons of reviews on new products and I want them all…but lack the dough to get them. I haven't purchased any new makeup in at least a year, and it's breaking my heart.

Last Christmas was horrible. I wasn't able to get anything for anyone and it made me feel so low. Christmas is my second favorite holiday and I love giving to others. I want to be able to give to everyone I can this year, and even to the less fortunate. I miss having the means to be generous.

I haven't been happy in such a long time, and I really miss the feeling of enjoying life. I need to get that feeling back for my own sanity.

I'm keeping this list as my own little time capsule of things I want to accomplish. I hope to look back in January 2018 to have accomplished all of these and then some. Here's to my future endeavors.


Life Update: Joining the Military

When I became unemployed, I already had a game plan in mind for what I wanted to do – join the US Airforce. I’ve been wanting to do it for soo long guys, like since I was 18, but I was always overweight and didn’t really have the correct mindset. I remember a recruiter telling me when I was 18 that I needed to lose 15 pounds in two weeks. I thought, “boy, you’re out your mind.” In my head it, was unrealistic, so I didn’t even bother. I really wish I would have, but let’s not delve into all of my past regrets. 

Everyone I know has been in the military. My sister was in the Army, my dad was in the Marines, my boyfriend was an Army Ranger, my uncle and cousin are in the Air Force. I think I have a few cousins in the Navy, too. Even a lot of the kids I graduated high school with shipped off to the military. So why not me, too?

When I went to talk to my new recruiter, she said that I needed to lose 8 pounds before I could join, due to my height (I’m 4’11”). They’re apparently very strict about weight, and even if I’m .1 pound over, that’s it for me. So that’s what I’ve been doing, day in and day out. My diet is very strict, I eat clean, for the most part. I have one cheat day a week where I get to have pizza and ice cream, because God knows I can’t live without that. 

I weight lift and run every day, too. I have about two more pounds before I meet the max weight, but I’m really hoping to be under it. It’s incredible what your body is capable of. I’ve already lost 5 pounds and it shows. I’m able to run, I mean actually RUN without stopping. I’ve never been able to run like I can now! It’s validating that my hard work is finally paying off. 

I guess it’s a great time to be unemployed. I can spend time focusing on reaching all of the goals I’ve set. Not to say that it hasn’t been hard; heavens knows it has. Between choosing which bills to pay, worrying about the overdue, and also factoring in that my boyfriend and I have absolutely no money, it’s been a stressful time. My bank account is usually in the negatives and his paycheck is usually gone by Monday. So before you think it’s a walk in the park to be unemployed, think about only having $20 to spend on groceries for two people for a week.  

I’m really holding onto the hope that my efforts don’t go unnoticed and that this all works out. I’m nervous to what the future holds, but I know I need to make this decision. Not only will I have a steady job, career training and the funds to attend college, but I’ll also be able to give a big middle finger when I leave the town that’s forever been my home. I can’t wait to start my life anew, in another state as an American Airman. I’m as terrified as I am excited for this new journey. I can’t wait to see what the future holds. 

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