LIFE UPDATE: New Job, Life Plans, Moving?

Hello frenz and Happy Humpdaayyy! This was supposed to be Monday’s post, but better late than never! If you follow me on Twitter, then you pretty much know the things that have been going on in my life — and if you’re not following me, click here and give me a follow…it’s a fun place to be! I haven’t gone into full details on the things that have been going on in my life behind the scenes, so here I am with my large iced coffee and Sk8r Boi playing on Pandora to bring you the latest deets on my life.

So when I wrote one of my first blog posts waayyy back in April (I’m in disbelief that it’s almost the end of August), I might’ve mentioned once or twice or maybe a thousand times that I’m unemployed. To keep a long story short, I’ll briefly explain (or you can read that post here). I basically got laid off without a recall, meaning they fired me but told me it was a lay off. Whatever, I hated that job anyways and the money was complete garbage. But I am proud to say that after an entire summer of searching for a job, while also going back and forth about enlisting in the military, I finally landed a job…but not just any job…A GOOD PAYING JOB.

You’re looking at a brand new Customer Service Agent! I will be working for a company that is new to my town and is just starting up. From what I’ve been told about the job description, I will be handling inbound calls to help small business owners with Quickbooks, which I think is a program that helps to budget money (I’m a noob & should probably do my research). I have a six week long training to complete that doesn’t start until September 5th, which is perfect because it gives me enough time to get posts and makeup looks scheduled!

I’m mostly excited for this job because:
A. the pay is excellent!
B. it’s full time!
C. because I’ll finally be able to break out of home health care!
It’s not that I don’t like home health care. I mean, it was a fairly easy job and you can get paid a decent wage with experience, but all of the agencies I’ve worked with completely turned me off from the field. It’s so refreshing to have a different field of work give me a chance with what little customer service experience I have!

So since landing this job, I’ve been doing some major life planning. I’ve been really into makeup for some time (as you can obviously tell lol), and I really think I want to turn it into more than just a hobby. I’ve been trying to get a job at Sephora for FOREVER, and they just recently called me for an interview, but I already landed a job that offers a higher wage and more hours. More money, more makeup is how I look at it.

My dreams of working at Sephora might have died, but I still have this blog and my Instagram. What I really want, and what I plan on doing is basically work two jobs; one being my 9-5 day job, and the other being makeup/blogging. I know it’ll be a lot of work and take a lot of time, but let’s be honest, I don’t have much of a social life away from my dog, sister and boyfriend.

Having a job with a decent wage brings about sooo many opporunities. My boyfriend and I realllllllyyyy want to leave Pennsylvania. It’s probably the worst place to live; 12/10 would not recommend. So having more money leads to saving more money which, in turn, leads to the possibility of moving. We’ve made a goal to have enough saved up within the next two years to leave this shit hole and never look back. There are so many opportunities elsewhere, especially for my goals in life. There’s something about where I live now that makes me feel so small. Maybe it’s the drugs, maybe it’s the people who spend their entire lives on welfare, but I need to get out of here for my own sanity.

I don’t have the most interesting life. I’m a pretty big loner with an obsession with makeup, but I thought it would be nice to give you all the deets on my life. Make sure you stay tuned for Friday’s post – it’s gonna be a scream!


Liebster Award Nomination 2017 & My Nominees

Hello frenz and welcome back! This post is extra special and near & dear to my heart. I was nominated by the lovely Rena for the Liebster Award! For those of you who aren’t familiar with what that is, it’s an award for bloggers. No trophy involved, just recognition and support for your blog. It’s a big deal for me, because I’ve literally never been nominated for anything. I once won a 3rd place Track and Field award in elementary school, but that’s about the extent of my award winning abilities. If you haven’t, go check out Rena’s blog. She’s a cat loving personal blogger who writes about some pretty relatable stuff – plus she’s super sweet, so give her blog a read. Now, without further adieu, let’s get into this thing! 

Rena’s questions to me are as follows, with my answers. I hope you enjoy getting to know a little more about me!

1. What is your go-to dressed up outfit? Every time you want to look done up, what do you tend to do?
Well, let’s address the outfit portion — I usually where anything that I feel comfortable and confident in. It really depends on my mood. Sometimes I want to wear a dress, and other times leggings and a cute top can suffice as “dressed up”. Don’t judge — comfortable can also be dressy. As for what I do to look done up, I definitely gotta fill in these sparse brows and add a sharp as shit winged liner.

2. What is the last book you read?
I’m one of those people that read half a book and then put it down and start another one. I’m currently in the middle of reading three different books, but the actual last one would be Salem Falls by Jodi Picoult. This book caught my eye on Walmart’s book shelf AGES ago, mainly because it had Salem in the name. I hardly remember what it’s about but I know I really enjoyed it. Perhaps I’ll make it the fourth book in my ongoing reading frenzy.

3. Why did you choose the blog platform you are on?
Mainly because I wanted a site where I was able to gain followers straight from the platform. Plus, I’ve heard very good things about WordPress. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever transfer platforms. WordPress is where it’s at for me.

4. What is one goal you have accomplished this year that you are really proud of?
Finding what I want to do in life. It’s not so much of a goal I had, but I’m really happy that I found my calling this year. I know I want to write for a living, and in learning that, it’s completely changed my outlook on the future.

5. What hair product would you rather not live without?
Leave-in conditioner. My hair has a nice, natural texture to it. I can live without styling it, but I definitely need it to be hydrated so it doesn’t turn into broom bristles.

6. What methods do you use to plan your blog posts?
I take mental notes most of the time. I get an idea and outline it in my head. If it’s a more complicated post that requires research and planning, I free write on my phone just to get my ideas out. Then I paste it as a draft in WordPress, get on my laptop and paste it into a Word document for edit. 90% of the time, I plan and upload posts from my iPhone.

7. What is one beauty trend you’re afraid to try but really want to?
Bright colored hair. I once dyed my platinum blonde hair a non-permanent blue and it stained my hair. I spent countless nights bleaching my hair to get it out, leaving it dry and lifeless. I love the look of ombre’d colored hair and I would kill to have it, but I’m way too apprehensive due to a bad experience.

8. Do you prefer sweet or salty snacks?
It ultimately depends on my mood. Sometimes I have a hankering for chocolate that can only be satisfied by eating four bags of M&Ms. And then other times, I can eat 12 bags of potato chips like it’s nothing. I honestly don’t snack too often, but the type of snack I want is usually reliant on my mood.

9. What is one song you can’t stop listening to at the moment?
I don’t have one specific song as I do one specific artist. I went full 2006 emo kid and listened to My Chemical Romance for a month. Now I’m on a Melanie Martinez kick. I give it a few days until I’m jamming to Cannibal Corpse for weeks.

10. Do you have a favorite magazine and why?
I might be in my 20s, but I’m still a huge fan of Seventeen magazine. They have a lot of nice tips and trends — plus they always have vibrant colors which usually catch my eye. Their articles/stories are also very well written and their magazine is nicely put together.

11. What is one piece of advice you would give a first-time blogger?
Just do it. You might feel silly or like a noob, but the blogging community is extremely supportive of all types of blogs. I thought since I didn’t write about makeup or beauty that there wasn’t going to be a place for me in the blogging world, but the reactions to my posts are just the opposite. I have tons of blogger friends. I honestly have more online friends than I do in real life. Blogging is a commitment, but if you’re truly passionate about it, you will love every second of it. Just put yourself out there and go for it.

Now that you learned a little about me, it’s time for my nominations! Since Rena nominated me, I’ve been constantly thinking of who I want to nominate. There’s this rule about only nominating blogs with “200 followers or less”, but I feel weird about asking someone or creeping on their blog. So I’m going to nominate some of my favorite bloggers that really need some love and recognition.

Mystic Mogwai – I found this girl on Twitter and she’s so incredible. I love her style and her blog name is ingenious. She’s not one specific type of blogger, which is why I love her blog so much. She’s chatty and her blogs are fun to read!

Natural Hazards and More – This girl deserves so much recognition for her ongoing battle of informing the internet world on science. Her blogs are extremely important to the future of the planet.

Ditzy D Blog  – She writes about her self journey through anxiety and depression in such a beautifully honest way. Her blog deserves so much recognition.

The Emma Lifestyle – She’s a lifestyle blogger who writes about everything — from beauty products to book reviews to everyday life. She’s a sweetheart and I really enjoy her blog.

Howling Libraries – I really love book bloggers. Although I’m not currently too much of a reader, I enjoy reading book reviews. She writes really solid reviews, so why not go give her blog a read?

Black Tulip Beauty – And last, but certainly not least, is one of my FAVORITE beauty bloggers out there — mainly because she’s a total babe and I wish I could jack her style. She writes incredible product reviews and also has sunflower yellow hair!? She’s the total package when it comes to beauty bloggers.

Below are the questions for my nominees, if you choose to accept! Have fun!

1. If you could be any animal, which would you be? Why?

2. What is your holy grail beauty product and why?

3. What is the one thing you want most out of life?

4. How do you come up with ideas for blog posts?

5. Who is your biggest role model? Why?

6. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?

7. What is your dream job?

8. Do you think you would survive in a zombie apocalypse? Why or why not?

9. What are you most confident about?

10. What’s your favorite movie and why?

Florida Nights: My First Time Traveling


Hello, frenz! Long time no blog! It’s been a few days since I’ve arrived back to Almost 70 Degrees and Overcast, Pennsylvania. It’s always a bittersweet feeling to arrive home after a one-week vacation; you wish you could’ve stayed longer but, at the same time, you miss your boo and fur babies. Florida was an incredible experience. It was my first time being on an airplane (which caused a nervous breakdown all its own). It was my first ever vacation in another state and even away from home – other than the time I was 13 and went to Las Vegas, but that honestly shouldn’t even count. It was an incredible experience, even through the most frustrating of times. Let’s sort these out in categories, shall we?

I get really bad anxiety when I have to be somewhere at a certain time so you best believe I was planning out the trip to the airport and every little move I would make. I (obviously) psyched myself out because it wasn’t a terrible experience…at all. Granted the airport we flew out of was incredibly small, so it was easy to find the kiosks, security and the terminal. I even got fresh airport coffee, which I was looking forward to since we left at 3:30 in the morning. The more time that passed, the more nervous I became that there would be an issue with our bags or somehow the flight would be cancelled (hello irrational fear). As zones were called and I began boarding my very first aircraft, the nervous feelings subsided, as I had successfully navigated through my first airport. That’s a win for this girl!

Okay, so I had a minor freak out within my own head when the plane took off — mainly because it shot back like a rocket and I was glued to the back of my seat. To be honest, I’m not sure what I was expecting other than the plane to blow up Final Destination style. Once we were at altitude, my nerves relaxed — until I had to pee. That was an experience all its own. First, I tried to open a closed stall (are they called stalls?) because I didn’t look around to see that there were, in fact, two potties in the same vicinity. I also couldn’t figure out how to get the water on to wash my hands, and soon couldn’t figure out how to turn it off. I wasn’t the whitest cloud in the sky that morning.

Arriving into sunny Orlando, Florida was incredible. Even looking down from the plane, it’s so clear how beautiful the Sunshine State is. The Orlando airport is international so it was massive in comparison to the one at home, in landmass and population. There was so much diversity in people, where they came from and where they were going. I was a confused mess when I finally had my feet on the ground — I didn’t know where to go or how to navigate this large and in-charge airport. Talk about a culture shock. Thankfully, everyone in Florida (unlike PA) are incredibly kind and helped us find the shuttle that would take us downstairs. From there, we were on our own to take elevators to ground transportation, which is where we thought we needed to be. It took us a good 20 minutes to figure out how to get outside. It turns out, my brother-in-law was at a different part of the airport looking for us. And so the shenanigans ensued.

Odd Fact: the buttons designating floor numbers in the elevators are labeled as cattle in the Orlando airport. Why?

So we didn’t actually stay in Orlando itself. My family lives about 20 minutes out of Orlando, and that’s where we spent the majority of our time. When we arrived, I was taken back by how hot it was. Now don’t get me wrong, I didn’t think it was going to be like it is up North, but I wasn’t expecting to be a baked potato as soon as I stepped out the door. The heat was incredible. You couldn’t get in a car without your legs and back burning on the seats. You couldn’t lay out in the sun to get a tan without becoming a sweaty pile of goo. Needless to say, I spent the majority of my time in the pool.

We weren’t pool potatoes for long before we became beach potatoes. I, personally, have only seen the ocean on TV. I was taken back by how huge (and how hot) it actually was. Crystal blue water with white (hot!) sand — it wasn’t long until I grabbed the boogie board and attempted to catch some waves. The waves knocked me down more times than I could count…I obviously didn’t have my sea legs. I could’ve spent my entire life in the ocean. We collected seashells and I learned about crab and clam holes from a 10 year old. It was a magnificent way to spend the day…except for the sunburn. That could’ve stayed on the shore.

Since daytime is so hot in Florida, we decided to wait until evening on one Sunday to go play miniature golf, and after, laser tag. The golf course was a tropical pirate theme with two separate courses. The plant life and scenery was the epitome of a tropical vacation…and let’s talk about the amount of lizards! I so badly wanted to catch a baby lizard, but those suckers are fast! While the humidity was at an all time high (but it made my hair look good so whatevz), it was a breath of fresh air (literal air conditioning) when we went to WonderWorks to play laser tag. Yet another first checked off of my list, but I have to say, I wasn’t a fan, mostly because I sucked and my shirt kept falling down. First World Problems, I know.

The remaining days spent in Florida were poolside with bagels and coffee — also a three hour nap in the pool (hello crispy legs). The sun was relaxing and therapeutic to me — I wasn’t thinking of all the problems I had at home. I was living right in the moment without a care in the world. But, all good things eventually come to a screeching halt.

Getting to the Orlando airport was a fucking nightmare. The rush hour traffic was at an all time high, with cars dodging other cars left and right. All I wanted to do was get to the airport and get on my plane because my anxiety was making me a flustered mess. The parking garage that my brother-in-law wanted to park in was full, so we spent a good 15 minutes driving around looking for a spot — meanwhile, I was having a panic attack about somehow missing my flight. We made it there at 6:00 and our ticket said we had to be through security by 6:27; I still wanted coffee and my sister needed to visit a gift shop — do you see why I was a hot mess? I later found out that we had more time than anticipated and I was a happy clam when I finally got my coffee…except when I threw it out in the security line because I wasn’t sure if I would be able to have it. RIP to my half full iced coffee. I still miss you.

It’s a weird feeling when you come back from vacation. It’s like you just lived this completely different life and then you’re back to where you started a week prior. Although I wish I could’ve stayed in Florida forever, I was ready to be home. It’s been five days since I’ve been home and I’m just now able to get my routine back. My days in Florida are becoming a fond memory.

All in all, it was a great experience. I don’t know if I would travel the world or be one of those “full-time travelers” after this experience. It’s too much of a pain in the ass to navigate airports and dodge that amount of people — it’s not my thing. It’s nice to have that place that’s “home” and I’m as happy as a clam to be back. I’m trying to get my blog and life back in order, so hang in there with me.


What’s Been Going On: Vacation, Anxiety, Life

whats been going on blog post

Hello there, frenz! Long time, no blog post. First off, I would like to apologize for the 24-day absence. If you read my last post, you know how I was running my blog completely from my iPhone and that I ordered a new laptop charger so I could run my blog the way it is supposed to be ran. Well, the charger came later than expected and then life events, as you all know, came crashing down like monsoon season in Vietnam.

My boyfriend thought three weeks ago that it would be the perfect time to quit his dead end job. If you know anything about me, it’s that I like to see people with happy souls. He didn’t have a happy soul at this job. He was doing slave work and working insane hours for very minimal compensation. He’s my man and my best friend, so of course I supported his decision 150%, even if I didn’t totally agree with it. Sometimes you gotta quit that crappy job for a happy soul and peace of mind; I’ve done it and was happier because of it. The only issue now is that we are a household with a total fiscal balance of $2 bucks.

Although we are extremely broke, we’re trying to make the best of our situation. I actually have a family vacation to Florida in T-minus 12 days. And no, I didn’t spend money on a plane ticket that I could’ve been spending on food. My generous and loving big sister and brother-in-law paid for both mine and our other sister’s tickets. Our niece turns ten on July 6th, and what kind of aunts would we be if we didn’t visit her? A vacation to bright and sunny Florida is long overdue, and is just what I need to clear my head. I need to get away from this rain and gloomy weather. I need a break from my own existence. I need to be in my happy place, which is poolside (or ocean side) with coffee in one hand and a fashion mag in the other.

As excited as I am, I’m also exceptionally nervous. I’m nervous for the plane ride, because I’ve never been on one and I’ve seen Final Destination a billion times; but I’m more nervous to see my big sister. She’s been like a mother to me ever since ours crapped out of the unconditional love department. I’ve made many changes to my life in the last year since she’s moved away and I can’t get it out of my head that she won’t approve of the changes I’ve made. She’s always told me she wanted me to move out of my parents’ house and experience life; learn what I like and dislike and find out who I am, and that’s just what I’ve done.

Whether I like to admit it, I need approval from my big sister. She’s always pushed me to do great things and I want to make her proud…but what if I don’t? It might be my anxiety talking or it might be a validated fear, but I don’t want to feel less proud of the choices I’ve made for my life by her disapproval. My boyfriend said something to me a few days ago that really stuck with me – “if she doesn’t approve of your life, then she’s not really your sister and doesn’t really love you.” And he’s right…like always. But if that is the case and she’s not happy with my newly formed beliefs and the choices I’ve made, then I won’t have much family left, and it’s already upsetting enough not to have parents in my life.

It could be the child in me that never grew up that needs approval and validation, but I  finally know what I want, and am meant, to do with my life and I’m ready to put the steps into motion. All I want is to be truly and utterly happy, at whatever cost.

Until next time, xo.

[Photo Credit: Pixabay]


Life Update: Mini Hiatus and Finding Myself

I’ve been well overdue for a new post, but it feels like all of the ideas I have aren’t me. It’s more of me impersonating my idea of what I think a blogger or writer is supposed to be. I think that’s why I lost interest so quick. This blog has taken off like I’ve never imagined. I didn’t think people would be interested in my life or the things I have to say, but it turns out to be the opposite. 

I think one of the main reasons I’ve shied away from this blog for the last week or so is because it’s completely mobile. It’s a pain in the ass, really. I’ve downloaded a notepad app to write on and then I transfer it over to WordPress. Typing on a phone is frustrating enough, not even considering the fact that I can’t just Google an image, save it and upload it in the middle of my blog. Not to mention that doing research on anything other than the symptoms of diabetes in cats is a living hell. Running this thing completely mobile is a headache and it’s not something I’m into.

If you’ve made it this far, you may be asking yourself, “why is this girl running a completely mobile blog?” Well, about six months ago, my laptop charger got stuck under my Stone Age, metal framed couch and it completely severed the wires. There was a point where I got it to work for half a second but then I became a bit too overzealous; resulting in a destroyed charger and a very frustrated Becca. 

It doesn’t seem like a big deal; just buy a new charger, you’re probably thinking. Well, when you’re broke af and can hardly pay your bills, a laptop charger is the last thing on your mind. Raise your hand if you feel me. Plus, I’ve looked everywhere to find this charger in stores and when I finally found it, I wasn’t willing to pay the outrageous price for it. But today was the day; I became fed up with all the hoopla of not having a computer. So I took the plunge and with $12 virtually in hand, I ordered a new charger online. FINALLLLYYYY!!! 

It should show up by Saturday — let’s all cross our fingers and toes that it shows up before then. I’m an “instant gratification” type of person so waiting for something in the mail is TORTURE for me, especially when I run a blog. Although my laptop screen is still broken (thank you lovely boyfriend for dropping it), I can still hook it up to my TV and use it like a giant monitor. 

Once I’m able to free myself from my mobile prison, it’ll be on like Donkey Kong. I’m excited to bring bigger and better content to you guys and be able to interact the way I want to. It’s so difficult to do everything you need to for a blog on just an iPhone alone. Just bear with me a little bit longer, guys. Like the Terminator, I’ll be back. 

Until next time – xo

[Photo Credit: Pixabay]

Life Update: Joining the Military

When I became unemployed, I already had a game plan in mind for what I wanted to do – join the US Airforce. I’ve been wanting to do it for soo long guys, like since I was 18, but I was always overweight and didn’t really have the correct mindset. I remember a recruiter telling me when I was 18 that I needed to lose 15 pounds in two weeks. I thought, “boy, you’re out your mind.” In my head it, was unrealistic, so I didn’t even bother. I really wish I would have, but let’s not delve into all of my past regrets. 

Everyone I know has been in the military. My sister was in the Army, my dad was in the Marines, my boyfriend was an Army Ranger, my uncle and cousin are in the Air Force. I think I have a few cousins in the Navy, too. Even a lot of the kids I graduated high school with shipped off to the military. So why not me, too?

When I went to talk to my new recruiter, she said that I needed to lose 8 pounds before I could join, due to my height (I’m 4’11”). They’re apparently very strict about weight, and even if I’m .1 pound over, that’s it for me. So that’s what I’ve been doing, day in and day out. My diet is very strict, I eat clean, for the most part. I have one cheat day a week where I get to have pizza and ice cream, because God knows I can’t live without that. 

I weight lift and run every day, too. I have about two more pounds before I meet the max weight, but I’m really hoping to be under it. It’s incredible what your body is capable of. I’ve already lost 5 pounds and it shows. I’m able to run, I mean actually RUN without stopping. I’ve never been able to run like I can now! It’s validating that my hard work is finally paying off. 

I guess it’s a great time to be unemployed. I can spend time focusing on reaching all of the goals I’ve set. Not to say that it hasn’t been hard; heavens knows it has. Between choosing which bills to pay, worrying about the overdue, and also factoring in that my boyfriend and I have absolutely no money, it’s been a stressful time. My bank account is usually in the negatives and his paycheck is usually gone by Monday. So before you think it’s a walk in the park to be unemployed, think about only having $20 to spend on groceries for two people for a week.  

I’m really holding onto the hope that my efforts don’t go unnoticed and that this all works out. I’m nervous to what the future holds, but I know I need to make this decision. Not only will I have a steady job, career training and the funds to attend college, but I’ll also be able to give a big middle finger when I leave the town that’s forever been my home. I can’t wait to start my life anew, in another state as an American Airman. I’m as terrified as I am excited for this new journey. I can’t wait to see what the future holds. 

[Photo Credit: Pixabay]